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Bethany Sloane

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[05 Jan 2006|06:36pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

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[02 Jan 2006|02:23am]
[ mood | hurt and stupid ]

Maybe I'm not the best person to do this.


[31 Dec 2005|02:30am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

She's here.

She's very tiny. She was born way too early. I'm not sure how I'll be able to explain this to anyone around here, except for people who already know, because I'm not even sure if I understand it myself. I know what happened, and I know it was all real, but I guess I'm just in shock.

The doctors and nurses are all amazed that she was born so early without any health problems. And they're amazed that there was nothing seriously wrong with me. I had told them I'd been beaten up, which I guess, in a way, was true. They've been keeping us both here, running tests, doing check-ups, everything they can think of, just to make sure everything's okay.

I've been told they'll release us on Monday, or Sunday. Then we can go home. I'm not one hundred percent home is safe, or that anywhere else is, but whatever happens, I'll be ready for it. Somehow.

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[25 Dec 2005|12:17am]
OOC note: I understand that since it's the holidays, people will be out celebrating them. This thread will remain open for as long as it takes for Rachel to be born, but the end result will be that Rachel is born healthy and safe and Bethany lives.

I don't know how graphic this is going to be, so I've put it under a cut tag in case things get graphic. Do NOT click the tag if you are offended by graphic images.

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running into azrael [25 Dec 2005|12:13am]
[ mood | scared ]

WARNING: the following contains graphic images and language, do NOT read if that will offend or upset you.Collapse )

[23 Dec 2005|12:48am]
[ mood | anxious ]

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Christmas presents! [23 Dec 2005|12:21am]
[ mood | content ]

Bartleby and Loki get pendants and tickets to wherever they want to go (ignoring the fact that they could probably fly there themselves) and various travel brochures.

Rosie gets earrings and a necklace.

Serendipity gets lingerie.

Rufus gets a copy of the Bible with a documented account of the crusade written by Bethany and insterted in and a jacket

Metatron gets alcohol and a suit to make up for the one that she destroyed with the fire extinguisher.

Nick gets a kid's science kit and a jacket.

Sam gets waffles and a nice scarf.


[07 Dec 2005|09:57am]
1. My username is ____ because ____.
2. My journal is titled ____ because ____.
3. My subtitle is ____ because ____.
4. My friends page is called ____ because ____.
5. My default userpic is ____ because ____.

1) My username is bethany_sloane because it's my name.
2) My journal is titled "I wouldn't want to let the family down, now would I?" because I don't want to let the family down.
3) My subtitle is "nobody can take that away from you, not even God" because that's what the Metatron told me when I first found out who I was and I was feeling like everything I was had all been a lie. He told me that because I now knew who I was, it didn't mean I wasn't who I was.
4) My friends page isn't titled anything because I couldn't think of anything.
5) My default userpic is me in a white shirt because I just liked the picture.

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christmas shopping [06 Dec 2005|04:53pm]
[ mood | good ]

Bundled up in a coat, hat, gloves, and scarf over her sweater and jeans, Bethany got into her car and started driving to the mall. She passed the woman's clinic on the way and bit her lower lip, looking down at her stomach. They had been nice enough to give her her job back and congratulated her on the baby, but she couldn't help still feeling weird bout counseling girls when she was a single mother. She didn't want to upset the girls she was counseling so she had taken to wearing oversized clothes while she was at work.

Shaking her head to put the thoughts out of her mind, she drove into the mall parking lot and managed to find a fairly decent parking space. She got out of the car and walked up to the entrance and waited for Nick to arrive.

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[04 Dec 2005|10:01pm]
OOC: about the baby's birth.Collapse )

[25 Nov 2005|10:07pm]
After cleaning up a little bit around her apartment, Bethany looks around. It had been a lot easier to move back in than she had anticipated, considering she hadn't brought a whole lot of stuff with her. She'd had some help with the heavier items and stored some things in the spare room that would eventually become the nursery.

Amazed at the amount of things she'd been able to get done during the course of the day, she pulled her hair out of the ponytail it had been in and looked in the mirror while she brushed her hair. When it was brushed to her satisfaction, she went back out to the living room and surveyed her movie collection while she waited for a knock at the door.
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[12 Nov 2005|01:39pm]
[ mood | happy ]

A lot of stuff has been happening lately. I met my future daughter a little while ago. I'm starting to pick out godparents for her. Planning to move back to Illinois sometime soon. Met some new people. And I'm sort of dating someone.

Things are good, overall.


coffee date [10 Nov 2005|10:47pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Bethany finds a portal that takes her from the Nexus into a coffee shop in...well, she's really not sure where. But it looks like a nice enough place and she steps inside, waiting for Nick to follow her.

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looking to the sky to save me [12 Oct 2005|11:34pm]
[ mood | confused ]

God, I know I haven't prayed in a while. I...well, you probably know there's no real reason. In truth, I really don't know why I haven't been praying too often lately. I guess I felt like I didn't really have to, after all that's happened.

But I'm getting off track.

God, there's been a lot going on in my life lately. Besides being pregnant. The big one is that...another me showed up at the Nexus. Me in college. She's shown up a couple of times, and every time I see her I want to cry. And tell her everything that's going on to save her all the pain that I went though. But I'm afraid that if I do, it'll effect me now, and I'll lose the baby. I know there might be a chance that she's a different version of me and I won't be effected at all, but...should I risk it?

Also, Rosie wants to move away from Gotham after what happened to her...I'm not entirely sure I want to go with her. I like living with her and everyone else and I truly appriciate everything she and the others have been doing for me, but...I can't help feeling like I should go back home. Try living on my own again. I've been so dependent on everyone around me for so long. And I don't think I can be a good mother when I'm dependent on so many other people.

And...actually, I don't know for sure if I want to talk about the last thing. Not yet. It sounds too stupid, and pretty much everyone knows about it and has given me advice on it.

Anyway, I...I could really use some help.


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[11 Oct 2005|10:32pm]
[ mood | confused ]

a gothic ballerina?Collapse )

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[10 Oct 2005|04:27pm]
[ mood | drained ]

I can't handle it. Watching myself go through it all again. Reliving it all again, in a way. And not being able to go and tell her about everything because if I do, there's a good chance that I could lose what I have now.

But it hurts. It hurts seeing it and knowing and not doing anything about it when I know that I could.

On another note, Rosie is back and she's fine. Thank God. I took care of Sirius and Ganymi while she was gone and they're very sweet little boys. They kept patting my stomach to see if she would kick. She's not, not quite yet, but she moves around sometimes.

I just hope I'm not causing her any harm. I'm...I'm really stressed out lately. I don't know if that's going to effect her or not. I hope not. Maybe I should make another doctors appointment, just to see if everything is all right.

Right now, I just want to sleep. For a very long time.

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[06 Oct 2005|12:18am]
[ mood | shocked ]

I was mentally prepared for everything except this.

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[30 Sep 2005|08:24pm]
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Well, that's sort of comforting.

friends quiz [20 Sep 2005|06:32pm]
[ mood | morose ]

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[20 Sep 2005|01:46am]
[ mood | drained ]

I should have known that he would know.

God, I'm an idiot.

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